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What good is dolor to a world were feelings are preprogrammed at birth. We should stop feeling sorry for ourselves and start doing good in this world. Sure we talk about helping our fellow man but how many of us actually does? Do we help that homeless guy on the street or do we just walk by? As I sit here and pick the carcass of a graham cracker from my teeth, is there any reason to help? What do we get in return? Probably nothing from that man but maybe our souls will be a bet lighter. Something to carry with us. Or maybe use it, by having helped that one man you can now think to yourself I've done my part I need not do anything else. I can think of the time when my mother gave a homeless man 20 dollars for no particular reason at all other than to help him. Sure he probably just went and bought booze or drugs with it but I like to think that he actually might have used it for good. Right now my anguish is life. I see people around me having fun in life. Doing things, going places being human. I just am in a laze. The kind of laze that an old dog gets. He just sits there on the balcony looking out in the street watching the kids play. I need to stop feeling dolor for my self and get it in gear otherwise I'll just be a 40 year old man sitting on the curb of life watching the kids play. |